Why is it always me??

All the things i have wanted from my heart! i failed to get it

don't know why is it always me!!

Yesterday was the reunion of A section! the section I studied in from class 1 to 6! it has been the most important part of my school life!

She also came to the reunion! 

I still like her 

and i know i wont get her!!

this is not the first time for me!!

she has someone in her life and a frustrated depressed moron like me has  no place in any ones life!!

my attitude towards life has changed!! sometimes i feel to leave this place and go to the mountains!

and become a sage!

Thats the best i can do!!

this just goes on and on and on!!

life has become mechanical!

its not like before!!

or is it only me?

i dont know why sometimes i feel theres no god!!

and sometimes i pray to god to make my life better!!

I hate my life!!!

Sometimes i hate myself!

Sometimes i hate every one!!

LIFE HAS DUMPED ME!

Then wats the use of living such a life?

Why i am still alive?

Probably i am scared to take my life!

I want a new life faar away from the pains of this life!!

i want to leave this city this "state"

and go somewhere where no one will find me!

but dont know where that somewhere is as i am chained with social ropes and boundaries